I hope you are all doing well. I wanted to try something a bit different on my blog, where I sort of write freely and not really think a whole lot about what goes into each sentence. I want to share some reflections for this half of 2012.
Lately, I’ve been really quiet in my thoughts. Some how, I feel as if I found my ‘center’ by accident. A week or so ago, I made an inner promise to myself that I would not focus on anything that did not help me progress and move forward as a woman. Thoughts that are negative or thoughts that could hold me back in any way.
I found doing this for the first three days was really tough. I had to be sharp in my mind every second of the day. Focus on the here and now and sorta question my first impressions on anything.
After the first week, I became really calm and just kept thoughts and emotions to myself. I gave me a break. I became my own best friend and cheer squad.
Personal life challenges really brought me down a whole lot.
I use to think that I needed to feed off my environment to feel good that day or to move forward. But I think I am wrong. I can’t control my environment, I could only control how I allow it to effect me. Good or bad.
So, after I concluded that I am the gate keeper to my thoughts it made me feel better.
I hope I make sense and that some of you are kinda understanding the flow of my mind right now.
Anyways, after those two revelations, I some how found my ‘center’ or my ‘calmness and confidence’. Think of it like a lotus, a lotus sits in a pond of muddy water, but it is so beautiful and serene that something like muddy water does not effect it. I guess that is the best way I can describe my inner thoughts and feelings.
I feel calm.
Maybe it’s age.
Maybe I am at a point in my life where I truly believe in myself and that I feel good in my own skin.
Maybe, challenges in life won’t scare me as much. Or maybe they still do, but I try my best to only do the best I can.
So, I am moving friends, I know I’ve mentioned that a lot, but as I am in between breaks of packing away, yet again, my life along with my husband, I feel scared with this totally new venture, but now, I believe in me. I know who I am. I know what I stand for and I know what I want to do.
I hope to share my journey with you all and maybe some of you may find inspiration and maybe some of you may find your center.
I shall see you again. I hope you are all happy and well.
Tags: daily musings, positive thoughts, reflections